Sometimes the world is spinning and I can’t stop thinking
What will it take for me to keep on winning?
I’m running in circles, never stopping to take a look around,
Lost in my own mind…
Let’s just get out of town
That will fix all our problems when we just run away,
But that’s just a lie that I hope won’t fade.
Falling faster and faster from what I once knew,
Finally, I’m running right toward you.
You open your arms and say
Come to Me
I can’t control my tears
Those moments where we just want to escape for a little while can lead to us going our own way and beginning to believe the lies that the enemy puts in our head. Instead of running from what we know to be true, out of fear, shame, guilt, insecurities, we should run toward our Father, who will hold us in His arms just to tell us it’s going to be okay and that He loves us. His love can change us in an instant and sometimes we need to be reminded of that. He isn’t here to knock us down, but to lift us up. We need to get out of our own heads and get into His. He will speak if we listen, and even when we aren’t trying to listen to Him. Your heavenly Father loves you and would love to hold you in His arms.
There was a time where I wasn’t leaning on God as much as I should. I felt like I didn’t have the authority that Jesus has given to us. Instead of praying boldly about my depression or insecurities, I would hide in my room, sometimes lying in bed all day because I was too anxious or depressed to do anything if I was off work. The thought of being around people was extremely difficult some days because of my fear of rejection. I was crippled by the lies of the devil and I felt powerless because I just couldn’t understand that power that God gives us through Jesus. But He met me where I was. It took some courage on my part to accept that His promises are truly real, no matter how I see myself, but He kept on showing me what I needed to see, healing me deep inside until I could finally accept what He wanted me to see.
"Now all Glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think." Ephesians 3:20 NLT